Being Still....Days 13, 14, 15, & 16

As I am spending more of my "still time" reading and praying, I don't feel as inclined to try and write.  Mostly b/c at the beginning, writing was a way that I was staying busy for that 30 minutes, and also b/c writing helps me process things.

It's weird, ever since I was little, I've LOVED to write.  When my parents downsized and brought all my goodies from childhood, there was an entire bin full of notebooks and journals I'd written in.  Everything from poems and short stories to lists of the boys I thought were cute ;) (My husband and I got a good laugh reading those).   Some of those notebooks were written as early as 2nd grade, though most of them are barely legible and full of crazily spelled words, they are still full.

So, why does that matter? Well, in thinking about writing my blog and that helping me process God's message to me for today, I started to realize why I love writing so much.  God has given all of us a story.  Our lives are His great story (or at least they should be).  And when I write, and share My Story, I am sharing God.  Which is one of the reasons I am so honest about my shortcomings, failings, and crazy life.

You see, God didn't give my a perfect life, but he did give me a life that's perfect for me.  I struggle, and fail more often than I would like.  But all of that failing just makes me rely on him more AND it makes my story more about him than me-which should be my ultimate goal.

So, in the past few days of contemplating the 46th Psalm, I have been wrestling with my story.  I have now been enjoying God's presence and peace, I have come to appreciate that in Him I cannot fail, but now I am wrestling with my story b/c I wonder what it's supposed to look like when my story is not about me, but him.

I am praying that as I continue to write my story, His glory will shine through more and more, as I grow closer to him.  And my prayer now is that one day (hopefully soon) His story will be so powerful in my life that is all people will see.



Psalm 46

For the director of music. Of the Sons of Korah. According to alamoth.[b] A song.

1 God is our refuge and strength,
    an ever-present help in trouble.
2 Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way
    and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
3 though its waters roar and foam
    and the mountains quake with their surging.[c]

4 There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God,
    the holy place where the Most High dwells.
5 God is within her, she will not fall;
    God will help her at break of day.
6 Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall;
    he lifts his voice, the earth melts.

7 The Lord Almighty is with us;
    the God of Jacob is our fortress.

8 Come and see what the Lord has done,
    the desolations he has brought on the earth.
9 He makes wars cease
    to the ends of the earth.
He breaks the bow and shatters the spear;
    he burns the shields[d] with fire.
10 He says, “Be still, and know that I am God;
    I will be exalted among the nations,
    I will be exalted in the earth.”

11 The Lord Almighty is with us;
    the God of Jacob is our fortress.